A focus on focus

Life is busy, I can't focus on work, school and two blog all at the same time apparently. Let's not forget about playing video games. That seems to be an integral part of my life.

I was on the train today watching episodes of Penn and Teller's Bullshit! on my PSP. Bullshit! is a Showtime show, so they have nudity when appropriate. The episode I was watching was about hair and they just had three people get full body waxes. I guess it was talking about the extremes people would go to through in order to look good. Sorry, I don't remember, i couldn't focus. There was a couple shots of men and woman's ass cheeks fully open. I was too busy focusing on blocking out nut sacks and vaginas on my PSP so that the nosy over-the-shoulder watchers wouldn't be offended... or... excited.

I heard someone at the office scream that it's so hard to focus. And really, it is hard to focus. I personally lost focus when I typed in blogger.com. Now look at me, totally focused on something I haven't been focused in for a while.

A person I messaged on AOL Instant Messenger replies back to me a couple hours after I message her. She says she can't talk right now because she needs to focus. I lose focus of what I was doing in order to read that she needs to focus.

When I try to sleep, I focus on too many things. My mind drifts out and refocuses. The gears start moving, thinking about what I did that day and what I want to do the next day. Last night I got up in the middle of the night in order to write something down. I didn't want to forget about it by the time I woke up.

We all need to focus, and really, at some point we're all focusing on something. We focus on what other people are doing, we focus on the things we want to do, and we focus on distractions, laughter, and fast moving heavy objects. We're always in focus, but rarely in focus on the things we need to do. We all lack focus. Just like this blog.