Flashbacks

Everyone has bad memories of when they made mistakes when they were young. It's not really something to be ashamed of right? They were learning experiences. Sometimes things work, and sometimes they don't.

Sometimes I get these terribly real flashbacks. I get taken back to a moment where people are laughing at me or completely silent after I did something. I'm back at the awkward moment with a girl or heck, an awkward moment with a guy. I'm back skidding on the road, watching a tree rushing toward my car. I'm lost somewhere, too prideful to ask for directions.


These moments make me cringe. It feels like it takes forever to get the thoughts cleared out of my mind, though in reality, it's probably only a couple seconds. Sometimes it feels like a self induced brainfreeze. I just clutch my head and squeeze, waiting for the moment to pass.

It's weird. The moments mostly aren't that big a deal. Maybe it's just that I don't like being back there. Maybe its' good to be reminded every once in a while. I just wish that when they come to mind, it wasn't so violent.

But maybe that's just my own reaction to an embarrassing moment.