Asian Girls. Black Hair. Good.

I can understand people wanting to dye their hair. Everyone wants to experiment and try something different. They want to be something else, look attractive, stand out, become pretty for others or themselves. But please, you have to realize that dying your hair isn't for everyone. Some people can pull it off, some people can't.

After 22 years on this Earth, I can honestly say that the most attractive hair color for asian girls is black. It's so shiny and silky. Long, black, flowing hair. The kind of hair that blows behind you in the wind and for a split second, it looks like the air around you is holding you up. Colored hair? Why?

There are certain people with certain complexion that should dye their hair a certain color. I'm not expert in color matching, but I'm sure some lovely person will come and explain to me the finer points of skin tone and hair color.

So, a visual. Blond streaking/highlighting is pretty hot right? It makes the girl look um.. brighter or some shit. Well, there's a couple asian girls I know who have blonde streaks and it just looks like half their hair died and didn't fall off their heads yet. I know this one girl who had the best natural black hair ever.. she streaked it and now it's a bunch of crap.

And please, choose basic colors for hair dye. Your magenta copper high sun golden rose garden red tone #387 makes you look like a fake ass red haired asian barbie doll. Well, I guess it works, because it matches your plastic make up splattered face.

The Holdem Bandwagon
 
Poker is poker.  I was raised on the outskirts of Atlantic City, my parents were Casino employees, my friends' parents were casino employees.  My mom used to bring me home decks of cards and craps dice.  I grew up learning how to gamble (and drinking too--they go hand and hand, but that's another story).

Now it's 2004 and for the past year, all of a sudden there's these people out there who praise Texas Hold'em like it's the greatest form of poker ever.  Not to bash it or anything, because I think it's a pretty complete way of poker, but I do question the integrity of all these people who talk about Texas Hold'em like they played it since they were seven.  Seriously, jump on the bandwagon much?

Today I was walking out of class, and this kid was trying to tell this girl that poker was THE game to play (which I wouldn't argue) and that Texas Hold'em was the best.  The girl had no clue what the game was, and the guy made himself sound like the Texas Hold'em champion of the world.  Sorry buddy, you probably don't even know what 10,000 dollars looks like, let alone have the funds to join the World Series of Poker.  And even if you did, you'd shit your pants so fast after someone raised by 2,000 bones.  Stick with your nickel and dime chips.  Hope you don't spend your lunch money on those hard to afford 20 dollar buy-ins.

Personally, I haven't jumped on the bandwagon.  Hell, I even admit I didn't know what Texas Hold'em was until a year or so before the craze hit.  Even then, i wasn't interested.  I am a diehard 5 card draw (deuces wild) poker player.  I don't like to gamble with friends though, bet too little and the game gets boring, bet too much and there's resentment.  And even if there's no resentment, there's an expectation that you'll play again the following week so that the losers can try to win their money back.

And seriously, how is Texas Hold'em the best way to play poker?  It's like playing the fuckin lottery.  You sit there holding your crotch with the two cards that you're dealt and you just pray that the pool will have the cards you need.  It's more like bingo then poker.  At least with five card draw you have to have a little luck, a little instinct, and a little bit of card counting skills.

So you keep playing hold'em, i'll play real poker.  And don't even give me the argument that Texas Hold'em is the best because of how popular it is on TV.  You put a 10k buy-in on Yahtzee, put it on ESPN and yea, all those retards and their mom's would still watch it.

Clubbing is hard.
 
I went clubbing twice this weekend.  TWICE.  Both times I went with completely new people that I never met before (except for the person who invited me).  I must say, it was really refreshing meeting those people.  Every once and a while I need a change of pace, go out enjoy life.
 
Friday night's clubbing adventure:  If I did drugs, I should have done it friday night.  I swear, I saw possibly every person I have ever met since coming to Drexel.  Ok, that's maybe an overstatement, but I can confidently say I saw a representing member from each of the groups that I throw people into when I met them.
 
These groups are the Koreans, the Commuter lounge asians, the asian sorrority girls (sometimes lumped together with the Koreans), the random I met them one time before group, and even, yes I do dare say, the GCC Church group.
 
It was a trip seeing all those groups together at once.  I danced a little, felt awkward dancing with the people I never met before, still did it, but I did spend a fair amount of time wallflowering.  It was great because it was like a reality show, where I knew all the people, and I could place the camera view anywhere I wanted to at any given time.
 
Saturday night's clubbing adventure:  My friend calls me up to go clubbing.  I was hesistant, since I already went yesterday.  He then says his friend called him and invited him to go clubbing because he didn't want to be the only guy there with a group of girls.  I say fuck yea i'll go.  I'm pretty sure those were my exact words.
 
So we get to the club and my friend pretty much just flakes out and leaves me with a group of random girls and a guy that I just met.  He was cool, and the girls were all very friendly, but still, felt awkward.  But, since all the girls were pretty, i had a great time.  Pretty girls are to me like kimchi is to korean people--it just makes everything better.
 
So, i didn't get to sleep until 8 am on saturday morning, so i figure after tonight (saturday's club shit) i wont' be going to sleep until 8 am sunday.
 
Nocturnal again, insomnia over.

First time for everything.
 
Well, a combination of lack of sleep, overstress and the fact that my computer got housed by a ton of spyware and adware and maybe a virus all within ten seconds has put me in a bad mood.
 
So maybe what i'm about to say isn't neccessarily true, maybe it's just a reaction to the stuff that all combined together and attacked my ass yesterday.
 
There's someone out there who I thought would always do their best to not disappoint me, but that person now has.  It was pretty blatant too.  That person might as well have said fuck off.  Not sure if I want to be angry or shocked or what.  Maybe i'll just say disappointed.  I'll never see that person the same way.
 
So what to do after someone tells you to fuck off?  Well, not much.  And in my current state, I don't think I have the right mindset to make the proper decisions.
 
In the end, probably nothing will change.  Nothing that is, unless you count that little spark in the back of my head that will remind me every now and then of what they did.
 
Yea, i'm a little girl.

The Chronicles of Insominia

Last week, due to stress or maybe retardedness, I only averaged about 4 hours of sleep a night. The only strange part is I had no desires to nap at all. This problem may have even started earlier, but I just noticed it recently. I think I finally crashed last friday, attempted to sleep early and wake up early, but that was futile with life and all being in my way.

During the weekend, I didn't get any sleep either. Went to the beach with Tron and friends, woke up early. Crashed Sunday for I think about 14 hours.

Last night, sunday, I slept about 3. It's Tuesday morning right now, monday passed with no desires to nap to catch up.

Seriously, I don't know if i'm being normal right now or not. I would say yea, i'm just being a normal retarded college student, but usually, I nap to make up for all that nocturnal shizzle I pull.

Five brownie points for anyone who knows what I alluded to in my title.

Lead, Follow, Get Out of My Way

If you're going to play a game or anything that involves a group working as a team, there's some basic fundamental understanding of roles that everyone accepts. This basic understanding can be seen in any sport, any team activity, and pretty much every organization where there are people working toward a common goal.

I'll lay it out for you, purely and simply. Remember, these roles are sometimes assigned, but sometimes through the natural pecking order of people's personalities, abilities, etc, they fall into the roles by themselves.

The Leader: Even if there is no designated leader, a leader type is always present. He is the one that guides the rest of the group in what he thinks is the best. In order to move things forward, he will take the ropes if nobody else comes to a decision or works together. Leadership positions tend to change due to circumstances. In terms of something tactical like paintballing, someone may be a better leader at capture the flag while another is a better leader at search and destroy. Some leaders are assholes and just tell other people what to do, other leaders get stuck with it because there is nobody else filling the role and nothing is getting accomplished. You'll understand as the other roles are defined.

The Neutral Follower: This is the type where he doesn't like assuming command. These types are willing to do anything and will readily take on a cause without complaint--so long as they aren't the ones making the decisions. They are usually experienced and organized in terms of getting done what they're told to get done. They make desicions if they must, but they usually don't act out on their own.

The Indecisive Follower: Unlike the neutral follower, this person just doesn't have a solid concept of what's going on. He usually ends up just doing what everyone else is doing and if he's assigned to do something, he'll reluctantly do so. He'd rather just sit and see what happens. This type of person is usually really inexperienced and is afraid of making mistakes.

The Willing Supporter: This is an experienced person who has a solid understanding of what is going on and is capable of doing things on his own. He agrees with the Leader only because he knows that it's one of the possibilities that the supporter himself has thought of, so he's ok with the fact that someone else said it first. He is also comfortable in taking a secondary role for various reasons including perhaps the fact that he doesn't like the added responsibility of taking charge. He'll fulfill his role, usually doing an excellent job. If the leader were to ever be in a position where he is unable to lead, this type usually becomes the secondary leader since he can read what is happening and assume the role as the leader would have.

The Devil's Advocate: This is the person who knows what he's doing, thinks he knows what he's doing, or just wants to cause trouble. He's the one who could have been leader, but didn't because he either couldn't fulfil the role, couldn't control the other members, or just plain pussied out of it. But in some cases, that doesn't mean that he isn't someone who could make perfectly acceptable decisions. But since he's not the leader, he instead becomes bitter and tries to actually distrupt the flow of the rest of the group, voluntarily or involuntarily. Even if everyone agrees to do what the leader says, he'll take a stand for no apparent reason and try to change things. This kind of personality type usually inspires irrational decisions that could possibly deteriorate the goals of the group, the direction of the group, or possibly the group itself. He's also most willing to strike out by himself in order to prove a point or just not deal with what he considers incompetency among the rest of the group.

As you can see, a team full of followers by itself cannot function properly, but with a leader, a lot can be accomplished. Usually a team will have various types of followers and a couple willing supporters. If you're unlucky, you'll have a Devil's Advocate. Roles are interchangable. An Indecisive Follower upon becoming more experienced or comfortable in the activity may become a Willing Follower. A Willing Follower may regress to a Neutral Follower if things aren't going as he'd like them to or digress to a Devil's Advocate if he deems his choices were better suited. A devil's advocate may assume the leader role if the current leader makes too many mistakes and sways the rest of the group to try a completely different approach. You get the picture.

This role system can be applied to a multitude of activities including things like football, paintballing, multiplaying online shooters, and just about anything that has a tactical or strategic element. Not only that, it can also be applied to events like organizing a trip or a party.

So lead, follow, support, and if you wanna bitch, do something about it or shut the fuck up.

¿MyStiFieD? Weekend Review

Friday: Did some school shit. Fell asleep. Drove back to jersey. Slept early Saturday morning.

Saturday: Woke up saturday afternoon, worked on my car. Boost Gauge and half of an EGT gauge. Went hunting for velcro. Went to Casbah for Minature's 21st birthday. My little pokemon is growing up (but it refuses to evolve!). Slept early Sunday morning.

Sunday: Woke up a little before sunday evening, had a panic attack, drove to philly. Ate some burgerage, met some girlage, met some other girlage, did some drinkage, watched some fireworkage, drove homeage.

It's now early Monday morning.

Cognitive Psych

My cognitive psych teacher works at a brain trauma rehab center. He went off on a tangent today and started saying that he wishes that when his children are old enough to comprehend, that he wants to take them into work. He wants to show them all the bad things that can happen when people drink and drive and generally do stupid things. He hops that it'll make his children more aware of the choices they made so that they aren't ever in the same situation as those poor people.

I wish I could do the same thing if I ever had kids. Except, i'd totally fuck with my kids heads.

"Daddy, why is that guy drooling from his mouth like that?"
"You see, son, that's what happens when you drink and think it's cool to jump off a building into an empty pool."
"Oh... i'm never drinking when i grow up"
"Good for you son"

*Walk past another person*

"What happen to this guy? He keeps yelling and then smiling"
"Oh, you see son, this is what happens when you don't eat your vegetables"
"... Daddy?"
"Yea?"
"Are we going to have vegnables tonight?"
"We sure are."

*Walk past another person*

"Why is this guy in a wheel chair, daddy?"
"Oh, you see, half his body is paralyzed."
"What happened to him?"
"He didn't listen to his dad when he told him to do things the first time."
"..."
"But that won't ever happen to you because you always listen to me right?"
"Yes I do daddy."
"Then you don't have to ever worry about being like him."

*Walk past another person*

"Da--"
"He went to church."
"... i dun wanna ever go to church ever."
"Yea, it's pretty scary in there."

Alright, that last one is a little silly. But you get the idea.