Goodbye, memories.

I'm in a state of shock right now. I don't even know if what I'll be typing is coherent.

To make a long story short, while trying to install a new hard drive on my computer, I manhandled my current one, breaking off a resistor or capacitor or something. The drive is dead. Three years of my life is gone.

Gone are the three years worth of pictures I've taken. Gone are the late night deep meaningful aim conversations that I saved. Gone are my writings, my schoolwork, my web designs, and other personal works.

Sure, I could have probably taken it to some tech place which would have been able to open up the hard drive and retrieve my data, but from some quick research online, I found out that it costs a great deal. Now, I know that my memories are priceless, but my wallet bank account isn't. I dunno, I have a habit of randomly archiving things on cd's, i'm hoping most of the stuff is around somewhere, in some form or another. I am pretty sure I can find archives of everything... everything except for my pictures. I can't remember ever archiving those, and even if i did, it's probably only from the first year or so.

It's shitty how a little piece of metal/silicon broken off can eradicate the last three years of my life. I'm numb. I've been numb. I was numb sitting there, staring at the dead hard drive. I was numb as I plugged it, and unplugged it, and replugged it, hoping, just maybe, the drive would revive from the dead just long enough for me to pull things off of it.

All is not lost though, I did manage to salvage the drive by getting it replaced. Thank you Office Depot. You deserve a plug just for existing.

But now it's really gone, I don't have the drive anymore. So seriously, even if you did know a way to salvage the data, don't tell me, cuz it's totally impossible now.

I'm just going to accept it, move on, and create new memories.