Been thinkin about my future. It's kinda weird, but the whole purpose of high school was to get into college. The purpose of college is to be prepared for a career. It's not so easy after that. Basically when you first go to college, you are choosing a path that you pretty much have to follow for the rest of your life. I wonder though, how many people at the age of eighteen, who pretty much only lived all there lives in one place, under one family really know what they want to do for the rest of their lives?

It's not until you go to college and live life on your own do you figure out who you truly are. College is when you get to do things you may not have had the freedoms to do when under parents supervision. College is when you meet other dynamic people from places all over the country that influence and affect your life and choices. So how is it then that we are to decide our paths before we truly know ourselves?

Personally, I chose computer science because I wanted to make video games. It was my passion to play video games, and I wanted to be a part of others feel that passion. I thought it would be rewarding to create something everyone could enjoy. Being a programmer was my dream of grandeur. It's really a pipedream though. The process of making a video game has become a hundred times more complicated then it was back in the day when I first started playing video games. Mind you, I grew up in a world of pixelated graphics, where things were simple. Now, everything is 3D. Graphics are intense, the accepted standard is hundreds of time higher then it was before.

Not even sure what I want to do now. Do I still want to be a part of the video game market? Yea, but I don't think I can see myself sitting in front of a computer for 18 hours a day programming the code to calculate the effects of wind speed on a bullet.

So regardless of what I end up doing, there are three ways I see myself in the future:

-Poor, but happy doing something that I always wanted to do.
-Middle class, stuck at some dead in job, but content that I have everything I need in life.
-Rich and therefore happy that I have more then enough to do the things I want to do.

No matter what, I guess I'll be happy. I don't see myself being unhappy... i'm not the kind of person that will sit idle and accept defeat.

So one day, when I knock on your door and you see me with nothing but the shirt on my back and a big smile on my face, I hope you'll be kind enough to let me crash on the couch for a couple days til I figure things out.