Not having my car is really making me appreciate it more and more. I hate relying on other people. It's just not my style.

I'm stuck on some feelings right now. I don't want to elaborate because it may lead to unnecessary talk and other bs. I'm trying to decide if i'm just feeding off of my desire to want something I can't have or if i'm geniunely after it. Or maybe i'm just letting curiousity get the best of me, and I just want to know what the consequences of my actions will be.

Next week, work will start. I'm excited, but at the same time, I dread the monotony of the corporate world. This dread is mostly fueled by memories of last year's Co-op. I keep trying to reassure myself that last year was just a unique bad experience, but you know, i'm the kind of person who needs to have a dynamic environment that's always changing, because I, personally, am always changing. With that said, maybe I WILL change to Xanga.

Don't hold your breath though.