I still play video games. It seems like I always have. They are my escape from the real world. A moment in time when I can pause reality and concentrate on more immediate dangers to my in-game persona. Then, my mind can relax. Think about something complicated in the game, yet, in terms of reality, it is so simple. Solve the puzzle, kill the boss, wait for what's around the corner.
Much better then life, where everything is as unpredictable as rolling dice. You can only say the dice will be rolled, and only say that it's more likely to a certain number over another. It never turns out to be the way it is though.
So why am I escaping? Well, let's just say that I feel like I'm heading "down" in life again. On top of school starting again, and financial aid saying I can't get a work study cuz I didn't take advantage of it, and Co-op interviews being highly stressful, there are certain key things that are taking me down.
I can sum it up as ultimatums. I know, they are gay. Not only that, they never work. But you know, sometimes I feel like I need to make a statement, so I do it. I also hate the way that ultimatums has a negative conotation to it. I think they're really useful... but I digress.
Well, a certain person in this house has decided a certain video game is more important then doing other things. Irks me the most since he technically got me back into the other hobby. And it stings even more because that video game was originally mine. Then add the icing on top by still playing the game even though he saw me pack up and move everything to my car. I don't bluff.
Maybe now he'll read my blog and get mad at me for speaking my mind.
The other person... well, it's kinda funny. In what way? In how much we're alike. Both stubborn, both prideful, both immature, both think we're mature, both think we're right... and well, both alot of things. And the things i'm just guessin at, but it feels right to say: both don't want to be in this situation, both want to end it, but both also don't want to admit that they are wrong. Well, I don't think i'm wrong. But I don't think the other is wrong either. It's just that neither is 100% right. That in turn leads to the problem of who'll be willing to set aside their pride to work things out. I do though, think I took the first step.
So in the words of Yu-Gi-Oh: Your Move.
Much better then life, where everything is as unpredictable as rolling dice. You can only say the dice will be rolled, and only say that it's more likely to a certain number over another. It never turns out to be the way it is though.
So why am I escaping? Well, let's just say that I feel like I'm heading "down" in life again. On top of school starting again, and financial aid saying I can't get a work study cuz I didn't take advantage of it, and Co-op interviews being highly stressful, there are certain key things that are taking me down.
I can sum it up as ultimatums. I know, they are gay. Not only that, they never work. But you know, sometimes I feel like I need to make a statement, so I do it. I also hate the way that ultimatums has a negative conotation to it. I think they're really useful... but I digress.
Well, a certain person in this house has decided a certain video game is more important then doing other things. Irks me the most since he technically got me back into the other hobby. And it stings even more because that video game was originally mine. Then add the icing on top by still playing the game even though he saw me pack up and move everything to my car. I don't bluff.
Maybe now he'll read my blog and get mad at me for speaking my mind.
The other person... well, it's kinda funny. In what way? In how much we're alike. Both stubborn, both prideful, both immature, both think we're mature, both think we're right... and well, both alot of things. And the things i'm just guessin at, but it feels right to say: both don't want to be in this situation, both want to end it, but both also don't want to admit that they are wrong. Well, I don't think i'm wrong. But I don't think the other is wrong either. It's just that neither is 100% right. That in turn leads to the problem of who'll be willing to set aside their pride to work things out. I do though, think I took the first step.
So in the words of Yu-Gi-Oh: Your Move.
posted by Allen M @ 6/22/2002 03:18:00 AM
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