I was just talking to my friend Juan, something I do alot, but not so much recently. I forgotten how fun it is to contemplate with him. You know, deep conversations and stuff that you usually don't have with any person, let alone another guy.

But I was mentioning how I was "good" and he asked why. At first I was a little boggled, because most people don't usually ask why out of nowhere when you tell them you're doin good, but he got me thinking (Sly little filipino). And I realized that I've been doin really good recently because I haven't really been held down or boggled/baffled by girls in a really long time. My world used to revolve around plotting the demise of some young lady (and failing miserably), but now, it seems to mostly revolve around my car:

Mystic511: my mind is so clear nowadays though
Mystic511: mostly cuz i don't think about girls anymore
Mystic511: i know thinkin about my car is kinda superficial.. but it's really made me stress free
Glabro: That's good, man. Are you feeling freer?
Glabro: And I think about women too much. Specific ones.
Mystic511: in a way freer.. but i'm kinda bound to my car. but that is good in itself, because at least i feel like i'm doing something for myself
Mystic511: instead of doing it for others without any real gain.
Glabro: Well, as long as you feel that you
Glabro: are gaining from it.
Mystic511: like, i wash and waxed my car the other day... 3-4 hours of work. tired as hell. but it felt good to see my car all shiny.
Mystic511: didn't need to hear a thankyou or anything. didn't need confirmation from anyone else

Yup, that's how i feel. I'm finally serving myself through my car. It's something I never really have done. I always lived for other people, did things for other people, helped other people, gave things to other people, went out of the way for other people.. and etc etc. But now, I'm doing things for my car, and that really is just an extension of me.

So what if it's expensive. In the end, so are girls.