While sitting here, being an obsessive compulsive away message checker (see entry below), i was just thinking about how fast freshman year really went by. It seems like I remember every day... every mind numbing class... every decision not to go to class... every bullet on counter-strike fired... and it all seemed like yesterday.

But at the same time.. it seems like years have past. It is mostly because I feel like i have changed so very much since that first day I moved in. I really went through two lives at Drexel. I went in as a good student, a person who just wanted to have fun, but yet, keep good grades. But towards the end of the year, i just wanted to have fun. School died for me. I still did fairly decently.. but, i can just pull up my grades online right now.. and see the enormous difference between my gpa.

I don't know, was it a phase? Or have i permanently encrusted in my brain to be lazy? I think the laziness comes from the fact that I am even more cynical these days then I ever was. I just don't look at the world the same way. Sure, I can be happy, and I still love making other people happy, but, there are too many things in life that I can't ignore, and I know that it'll never change.

Hopefully things will be different when I move down to Maryland and start working at my internship down there. It'll be a chance for me to be in a new and different environment. I'll have new friends and actually work instead of mindless studying. It could be the beginning of a whole different outlook of life. *knock on wood*