Well, my life is pretty much almost complete. The ball is rolling, and it seems that I will be living life as a full fledge adult with a job for the next six months in Washington DC, at the US Department of Health and Human Services... the capitoal building being right across the street from me. If you think that isn't scary... you haven't been watching the news enough.

It's going to be weird moving on with life, but alas, this is what i wanted. The chance to move on and start over, the chance to grow from nothing and get a different viewpoint on my current life by living out another life, those are the things that I wished for. But now, faced with my wish, i am hesitant to take that last step, and scared to leave everything behind.

It won't be so bad though. I can be as far away or as close to my old self as I am willing to let myself be. The struggle now will be if I should completely move on, and just steadily seperate myself. And then, how much i'm willing to let go of my security, and my warm and loving past.

I don't even know if any of what i just said makes sense... getting kind of tired... time to sleep.