I think i've come to realize that my feeling of completeness was really just a feeling of numbness. I guess at that time, it just felt like I was complete because I didn't feel like I had anything I wanted. I still feel that way, but now it's more like, because there is nothing out there for me to want. Nothing that seems to fulfill me. I feel a void. It's like when you're so hungry, you can't eat. I can only nibble at things and try to regain an appetite, but I just can't stomach anything at the moment.